Split Ends

i know
you think i cry
too often
      for
          too long
                 over
                      too little
it isn't you
or anything you've done
it's just that
sometimes
when i cry
i go back
and i lose everything
i ever lost....again
i cry for my dead dog
              lost friends
                    grandma
                             and gene
it isn't you
it's just my beginnings
crashing into my endings
it's Jaron's voice
and Ricky's face
when they say
"mommy,we love you"

March 3,1996